mediocrity encarnate

so, at first it was a joke with a couple friends, then it became more suspicious, then things just started adding up too well. The Terminator movie(s) was a documentary of the events that have yet to unfold, but are certainly and clearly being built up to. One only has to link the pieces together to erase any doubt from thier mind. I will link those pieces together for you.

Exhibit A) Skynet Defense System                                          http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skynet_(satellites)

“Skynet is a family of military satellites, now operated by Paradigm Secure Communications on behalf of the UK ministry of defense, which provide strategic communication services to the three branches of the Brittish Armed Forces and to NATO forces engaged on coalition tasks.”                                                                    “Currently in its fifth generation, two of the three satellites were launched last year, and the thirs was launched June of this year.”

Exhibit B) Cyberdyne                                                               http://www.cyberdyne.jp/english/

yes, it may look innocent enough, but a company working on advenced humanized robotics under that name? “But Gourd” you might say, “Cyberdyne was a California based company that built skynet!” And youd be right. But suspension of disbelief is what helps make you enjoy things like this. Shut up.

Exhibit C) T1000? you decide                                http://www.physorg.com/news134043071.html

Tufts University has received federal funding to develop chemical robots that will be able to squeeze into spaces as tiny as 1 centimeter, then morph into something 10 times larger, and ultimately biodegrade. The “chembots” could access urban environments, tunnels, caves and debris fields, and carry out other risky operations in complex environments.

Exhibit D) Robots are getting way too freaking advanced: a robot that can learn how to use tools
robotic snake swims underwater This one is disturbing on a couple notes. On the one hand, it propels itself so fluidly and easily, with little to no air bubble trail, typical of what you might see from, say, a submarine. Also the fact that it is a robot swimming underwater. Still creeps me out a bit.
strap this to this and, well, does it really need to be said? Hell, combine all four of the above, and Youve got an intelligent, fully mobile killing machine.

Its only a matter of time, and humanity somehow hasnt seen this dark path were on. Heed the warnings that cinema has tried to show us. Its only a matter of time now….

so yeah, sorry i havent updated in a bit…

schools over, took my last final today. t’was ceramics, so it was basically “come take this vocab and procedures quiz, get your shit graded, and clean EVERYTHING!!!” i spent two hours in kilns today. I kinda wish i could say its a huge relief to be done and not have to stress anymore, but if you know me or have read my other posts, youd know that ios a damned dirty lie. The only thing thats really changed is i dont have to get up early on mondays and fridays any more. and because i no longer need to leave the house unless i really want to, im probably going to receed further into isolation in my room. awesome.

scrubs is such an amazing show. its the only show that hits me just right and can bring me near tears. seriously… its just amazing.

I really wonder what im going to do with myself….

so today is a month i havent been to my photoshop class. its pretty safe to say thats not going to end well. i havent started working on my final project for web design, that too, will end poorly. ceramics i need to add more time too, as it is, its the only class i have fun and try in. and electronic synth was a farce all semester, classes were half an hour long and usually consisted of the teacher going ‘hey look what i made, look what i can do’ then last week he gave us a semesters worth of information in one sitting, today, took the final. forgot to study so i cheated. fuck it. i think after the semester im going tgo work for a bit and look into how one becomes a chef.

of course, i havent really mentioned it to anyone, least of all my parents. i dont tell my parents anything, not that ive given up on school for the time being, not that im working on my drivers license, not that im feverishly job hunting, no, i keep alot of things to myself. i find its alot easier that way, when people dont know what youre up to they dont question it as much. if you mention ‘oh yeah im doing this this and this’ theyll ask about it, theyll remember it and bring it up later… i dunno, it doesnt sound reasonable at all when i re-read it, but whatev, i got this…. which is really my motto. ‘i got this’ is how i work, no uncertainty of what im about to do, even if from anyone elses point of view its  doomed horrendous failure, ill go at it with a smile. of course, i dont always do this, most of the time im indecisive as fuck. what do you want to eat. ‘uhhhhhhh……’ what do you wanna do tonight? ‘i dunno lol, its up to you’. cue an hour later with nothing decided and getting ready to call it off. sad for me to say as it is, there is no method to my madness… or if there really is one, i havent figured it out yet.

hooked on a few songs right now;

the widow- the mars volta http://youtube.com/watch?v=Z16-LoZRFVo&feature=related

mr. writer-stereophonics http://youtube.com/watch?v=1BBlhBhVx6A

the logical song- supertramp http://youtube.com/watch?v=pBAasek8NR4

dawn is breaking, im hungry as hell, not really tired… this is usually about the time i start going to bed, usually not tired, takes me about half an hour~an hour to fall asleep unless i take sleeping pills, which i only have one left of, and still have 3 or 4 weeks of classes i need them for… blah….

des cleared up the dead blogs and im still on the bottom row… bummer

I really dont know… im probably going to fail out of school this semester, give it about 80% chances i do. I think its mostly that i just dont care. I should care, but i dont. Im not that interested in what im taking, I dont have any goals or ideas of what i want to pursue in the long run, and, well, i dont care. Even if it is just community college, I know i should try harder. Im trying to get a job, but with no luck, and i just noticed it says ‘howdy, gourd!’ in the upper right. that made me smile. Its been suggested i take time out to figure out what i want to do, searching for myself and all that crap, i think i will. just work full time ’til ive got a solid idea of what i want to pursue.

besides all that though? im doin okay. Still dickin around with bass, slowly learning new stuff, mostly because i dont dedicate myself to learning it, i just like dickin around.I want a new bass though, so i can put the 5th string back on this one. My tyranid swarm grows larger for 40k, but i need so much more stuff its retarded. i need a new rig so i can play pc games again, mostly because of Age of Conan, maybe warhammer online, dunno, well see. i really need a job.

I also found a new love in pizza toppings. anchovies. I tried them for the first time a few days ago. I had no idea what to expect, so many people hate them, and its almost never called anyhting but an aquired taste. pepperoni, mushrooms, olives, anchovies. this is the pizza of the gods. The texture and initial flavor melts into the popping flavor of the olives and pepperoni, and the explosion of salty flavor compliments the sauce and cheese so perfectly. I am a salt junkie, so that probably helped alot, but dear lord. anchovies=win!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=It6JN7ALF7Y

wahahahaha fuck you hillary. wow.

fuck not having anything to do for spring break, at least im going to my friends house at the end of the week, ill probably have him come down when hes on his break too

no rest for the wicked and im not sleeping til dawn again, i know it. i dunno why but i feel so much more comfortable with a nocturnal schedule than i ever did on ‘normal’ sleep patterns

although white sodas are usually frowned upon, 7up is owned by dr pepper and is acceptable. some people might accuse this of being  a blanket bias towards dr pepper, but their quality shines through with this carbonated beverage as it does with their flagship product

no country for old men is the best movie without an ending ever

i have got to stop going to bed at 5/6am

a friend gave me a few of his sleeping pills, but i need to save them for thursday night, when i need to get up at 7 for class on fridays